I am not really sure

who I am becoming, like is it a new me, I guess im ok with it, I dont talk much, I used to have like the craziest sense of humor, but I just dont say much to many people, a year ago if I looked at the person I am now I wouldnt wanna be this way, the biggest thing on my list right now is to achieve in school. So I guess I will just have to be quiet lol, i dont like talking much anymore, most guys my age are out drinking having a good time and what not, I stay at home just watching movies from the redbox, like everynight for the past 3 or 4 weeks I rent a movie, last night I just watched the charlie bartlett movie or something like that, it was funny, My room is just to empty with boxes everywhere, I think its just a matter of time right now but its coming, people ask me all the time if I am scared to go out on my own, like leave a place where I grew up, I mean yeaaa I'll miss some of the friends and especially my family, actually my family is what I will miss the most, I have my reasons why I just have to leave augusta, someone once said everything happens for a reason. (out of everything that person ever said thats probably the only thing I will ever believe). I honestly have to say that it makes since for things to be the way they are. Sucks but we all have to admit how life can be sometimes. I have to start taking my life experiences and start using them towards the future. I think my last bad experience taught me, to take time to get to know a person very well, and see there character and how they handle things before I fall for someone. I said I dont regret things but I still regret loving and falling the way I did. but its the past and this is the future so i have to go to work soon later