Thursday, September 24, 2009
Miami
9 days until I get to see my girlfriend. I have to drive 9 hours lol but it will be well worth it. It is almost 7 in the morning and I am just straight chilling haha. Well I will blog later.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
bills bills bills
I have way to many bills, i need to find a job asap like quickly, car payment, insurance, and now i need a new tag, and well thats about it but still its stressful ha
work out
I have been working out like its a religion. I would really want to be fit like this picture of ashton kutcher
Call this my inspirational pic ha. It will work.
Call this my inspirational pic ha. It will work.
Thursday, September 17, 2009
some more cnn news
he United States is overhauling Bush-era plans for a missile defense shield in Europe, based partly on the latest analysis of Iran's offensive capabilities, President Obama said Thursday.
President Obama on Thursday says the Bush-era missile defense plan will be replaced with a new system.
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The "new missile defense architecture in Europe ... will provide capabilities sooner, build on proven systems and offer greater defenses against the threat of missile attack than the... program" that former President George W. Bush proposed, Obama said.
Obama said the change of gears was based on an "updated intelligence assessment" about Iran's ability to hit Europe with missiles.
The Islamic republic's "short- and medium-range" missiles pose the most current threat, he said, and "this new ballistic missile defense will best address" that threat.
U.S. Defense Secretary Robert Gates, speaking from the Pentagon immediately after the president's announcement, denied the United States was "scrapping" missile defense.
"This new approach provides a better missile defense capability for our forces in Europe, for our European allies and eventually for our homeland than the program I recommended almost three years ago," said Gates, who was defense chief in the last two years of the Bush administration and stayed on when Obama took office. Watch as Obama says the new approach is suited to threats of 21st century »
The Bush-era proposal called for the U.S. to set up a radar site in the Czech Republic and 10 missile interceptors in Poland to counter the threat of Iran launching long-range missiles at America's allies in Europe. See how the system would have worked » | See a map of proposed sites under the Bush-era plan »
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American officials from Obama on down insisted Thursday's announcement does not reflect any lesser commitment to European defense.
Russian President Dmitry Medvedev welcomed Obama's move with a televised statement of his own from Moscow. Watch how Obama's plan may affect U.S.-Russian ties »
"We appreciate the responsible approach of the U.S. president," Medvedev said, characterizing the new American position as "putting into practice" an agreement he made with Obama earlier this year.
"I discussed this issue with the U.S. president during our meetings in London and Moscow. At that time, in our joint statement, we agreed to, and set in stone that Russia and the United States will seek to work together to assess the risks of missile proliferation in the world," he said.
A top expert at the Council on Foreign Relations backed Obama's decision.
"The system that President George W. Bush proposed ... would have deployed interceptor missiles that had yet to be tested under real-world conditions to defend against long-range missiles that Iran had yet to develop," said the council's senior vice president, James Lindsay.
"Meanwhile, the interceptors would have been useless against the short- and medium-range missiles that Iran is rapidly developing," he said in a written statement.
But the change of gears, while making strategic sense, does present Obama with diplomatic problems, Lindsay said.
"Poles and Czechs worry that his decision signals a softening U.S. commitment to their security. Both countries saw the system as a way to tie themselves more closely to the United States and thereby deter an increasingly belligerent Russia," he said.
"Critics will also insist that the Poles and Czechs are right: He axed the Bush program in a foolish and doomed bid to 'reset' relations with Russia," he said. "Here Moscow isn't likely to be of much help to the White House. The Kremlin will claim a diplomatic victory and it won't offer any concessions in return."
The council released a report Thursday that said repeated technological failures had put the Bush missile plan behind schedule and likely over budget, as well.
Obama's Republican adversaries were quick to accuse him of selling out allies to placate Russia.
The "decision calls into question the security and diplomatic commitments the United States has made to Poland and the Czech Republic," said Sen. John McCain of Arizona, the 2008 Republican nominee for president.
Obama has been seeking a stronger relationship with Russia and better cooperation from the Kremlin to support tough U.N. economic sanctions against Iran if it continues to pursue its nuclear ambitions.
Missile defense has been a sore point in relations between Washington and Moscow, with Russia believing the shield would ultimately erode its strategic nuclear deterrent.
But a senior administration official denied a diplomatic motive to scrapping the missile defense program.
"This has nothing to do with Russia," he said. "The notion that we're abandoning missile defense is completely false. It's evolving into a different system."
At the briefing with Gates, the Pentagon's point man on the issue said the new system will have "hundreds" of missile interceptors.
It also will have mobile radars, including some in space, "that can move to wherever the threat actually emanates and wherever we feel we need to defend ourselves," said Gen. James Cartwright, deputy chairman of the Joint Chiefs of Staff.
Cartwright contrasted the new sensor technology with the radar systems envisioned in the old plan, which he called "basically left over from the Cold War."
The new plan includes three types of missiles to shoot down incoming threats -- Patriot missiles, which defend a single location; SM-3 interceptors, which he said could protect "a general area like the area from Philadelphia to Washington, D.C."; and large ground-based interceptors in Alaska and California.
Pentagon spokesman Geoff Morrell said that the Missile Defense Agency's budget would remain the same through fiscal year 2015.
"Now that the plan is official, we are working with MDA to review all costs," he said.
The Government Accountability Office reported in February that the MDA had spent about $56 billion since since 2002 and is budgeted to spend an additional $50 billion through 2013.
The European strategy, the MDA said, is budgeted at $4.5 billion.
Cartwright did not say how much the new plan would cost compared with the old one. But he pointed out that Patriot and SM-3 missiles are significantly cheaper than the interceptors the Bush proposal relied on.
"You do not want to go after large numbers [of missiles] with the very expensive missiles unless it's absolutely essential," he said.
He said the fact that the United States sells Patriot and Aegis systems to other countries reduces the cost to Washington. The SM-3 missiles are part of the Aegis Ballistic Missile Defense systems.
Other countries, he said, are helping to fund the research and development of the systems.
The first phase of the system is due to be in place in 2011, with the subsequent phases rolling out around 2015, 2018 and 2020, he said.
"It's a more advanced system, more cost-effective and efficient," the senior administration official said before the president and Gates spoke.
"The technology has evolved in a way that allows you to deploy a system that is more effective in countering both short-, medium- and long-range missiles," said the official, contrasting the types of missiles that Iran, for example, is believed to have with intercontinental ballistic missiles of the kind feared during the Cold War.
The Bush administration had cited the perceived nuclear threat from Iran as one of the key reasons it wanted to install the missile shield in Eastern Europe.
But a 60-day review mandated by Congress and ordered by Obama recommended the new approach that was unveiled Thursday.
A U.S. delegation held high-level meetings Thursday in Poland and the Czech Republic to discuss the missile defense system. Officials in both countries confirmed the system would be scrapped.
In a statement, Czech Prime Minister Jan Fischer said that Obama told him in a Wednesday phone call that the United States was shelving its plans. Fischer did not say what reason Obama gave him for reconsidering.
A spokeswoman at the Polish Ministry of Defense also said the program had been suspended.
"This is catastrophic for Poland," said the spokeswoman, who declined to be named in line with ministry policy.
Poland and the Czech Republic had based much of their future security policy on getting the missile defenses from the United States. The countries share deep concerns of a future military threat from the east -- namely, Russia -- and may look for other defense assurances
President Obama on Thursday says the Bush-era missile defense plan will be replaced with a new system.
1 of 3
The "new missile defense architecture in Europe ... will provide capabilities sooner, build on proven systems and offer greater defenses against the threat of missile attack than the... program" that former President George W. Bush proposed, Obama said.
Obama said the change of gears was based on an "updated intelligence assessment" about Iran's ability to hit Europe with missiles.
The Islamic republic's "short- and medium-range" missiles pose the most current threat, he said, and "this new ballistic missile defense will best address" that threat.
U.S. Defense Secretary Robert Gates, speaking from the Pentagon immediately after the president's announcement, denied the United States was "scrapping" missile defense.
"This new approach provides a better missile defense capability for our forces in Europe, for our European allies and eventually for our homeland than the program I recommended almost three years ago," said Gates, who was defense chief in the last two years of the Bush administration and stayed on when Obama took office. Watch as Obama says the new approach is suited to threats of 21st century »
The Bush-era proposal called for the U.S. to set up a radar site in the Czech Republic and 10 missile interceptors in Poland to counter the threat of Iran launching long-range missiles at America's allies in Europe. See how the system would have worked » | See a map of proposed sites under the Bush-era plan »
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American officials from Obama on down insisted Thursday's announcement does not reflect any lesser commitment to European defense.
Russian President Dmitry Medvedev welcomed Obama's move with a televised statement of his own from Moscow. Watch how Obama's plan may affect U.S.-Russian ties »
"We appreciate the responsible approach of the U.S. president," Medvedev said, characterizing the new American position as "putting into practice" an agreement he made with Obama earlier this year.
"I discussed this issue with the U.S. president during our meetings in London and Moscow. At that time, in our joint statement, we agreed to, and set in stone that Russia and the United States will seek to work together to assess the risks of missile proliferation in the world," he said.
A top expert at the Council on Foreign Relations backed Obama's decision.
"The system that President George W. Bush proposed ... would have deployed interceptor missiles that had yet to be tested under real-world conditions to defend against long-range missiles that Iran had yet to develop," said the council's senior vice president, James Lindsay.
"Meanwhile, the interceptors would have been useless against the short- and medium-range missiles that Iran is rapidly developing," he said in a written statement.
But the change of gears, while making strategic sense, does present Obama with diplomatic problems, Lindsay said.
"Poles and Czechs worry that his decision signals a softening U.S. commitment to their security. Both countries saw the system as a way to tie themselves more closely to the United States and thereby deter an increasingly belligerent Russia," he said.
"Critics will also insist that the Poles and Czechs are right: He axed the Bush program in a foolish and doomed bid to 'reset' relations with Russia," he said. "Here Moscow isn't likely to be of much help to the White House. The Kremlin will claim a diplomatic victory and it won't offer any concessions in return."
The council released a report Thursday that said repeated technological failures had put the Bush missile plan behind schedule and likely over budget, as well.
Obama's Republican adversaries were quick to accuse him of selling out allies to placate Russia.
The "decision calls into question the security and diplomatic commitments the United States has made to Poland and the Czech Republic," said Sen. John McCain of Arizona, the 2008 Republican nominee for president.
Obama has been seeking a stronger relationship with Russia and better cooperation from the Kremlin to support tough U.N. economic sanctions against Iran if it continues to pursue its nuclear ambitions.
Missile defense has been a sore point in relations between Washington and Moscow, with Russia believing the shield would ultimately erode its strategic nuclear deterrent.
But a senior administration official denied a diplomatic motive to scrapping the missile defense program.
"This has nothing to do with Russia," he said. "The notion that we're abandoning missile defense is completely false. It's evolving into a different system."
At the briefing with Gates, the Pentagon's point man on the issue said the new system will have "hundreds" of missile interceptors.
It also will have mobile radars, including some in space, "that can move to wherever the threat actually emanates and wherever we feel we need to defend ourselves," said Gen. James Cartwright, deputy chairman of the Joint Chiefs of Staff.
Cartwright contrasted the new sensor technology with the radar systems envisioned in the old plan, which he called "basically left over from the Cold War."
The new plan includes three types of missiles to shoot down incoming threats -- Patriot missiles, which defend a single location; SM-3 interceptors, which he said could protect "a general area like the area from Philadelphia to Washington, D.C."; and large ground-based interceptors in Alaska and California.
Pentagon spokesman Geoff Morrell said that the Missile Defense Agency's budget would remain the same through fiscal year 2015.
"Now that the plan is official, we are working with MDA to review all costs," he said.
The Government Accountability Office reported in February that the MDA had spent about $56 billion since since 2002 and is budgeted to spend an additional $50 billion through 2013.
The European strategy, the MDA said, is budgeted at $4.5 billion.
Cartwright did not say how much the new plan would cost compared with the old one. But he pointed out that Patriot and SM-3 missiles are significantly cheaper than the interceptors the Bush proposal relied on.
"You do not want to go after large numbers [of missiles] with the very expensive missiles unless it's absolutely essential," he said.
He said the fact that the United States sells Patriot and Aegis systems to other countries reduces the cost to Washington. The SM-3 missiles are part of the Aegis Ballistic Missile Defense systems.
Other countries, he said, are helping to fund the research and development of the systems.
The first phase of the system is due to be in place in 2011, with the subsequent phases rolling out around 2015, 2018 and 2020, he said.
"It's a more advanced system, more cost-effective and efficient," the senior administration official said before the president and Gates spoke.
"The technology has evolved in a way that allows you to deploy a system that is more effective in countering both short-, medium- and long-range missiles," said the official, contrasting the types of missiles that Iran, for example, is believed to have with intercontinental ballistic missiles of the kind feared during the Cold War.
The Bush administration had cited the perceived nuclear threat from Iran as one of the key reasons it wanted to install the missile shield in Eastern Europe.
But a 60-day review mandated by Congress and ordered by Obama recommended the new approach that was unveiled Thursday.
A U.S. delegation held high-level meetings Thursday in Poland and the Czech Republic to discuss the missile defense system. Officials in both countries confirmed the system would be scrapped.
In a statement, Czech Prime Minister Jan Fischer said that Obama told him in a Wednesday phone call that the United States was shelving its plans. Fischer did not say what reason Obama gave him for reconsidering.
A spokeswoman at the Polish Ministry of Defense also said the program had been suspended.
"This is catastrophic for Poland," said the spokeswoman, who declined to be named in line with ministry policy.
Poland and the Czech Republic had based much of their future security policy on getting the missile defenses from the United States. The countries share deep concerns of a future military threat from the east -- namely, Russia -- and may look for other defense assurances
cnn news
Federal agents searched Najibullah Zazi's apartment and another home in the same Denver suburb on Wednesday in connection with the terrorism probe, which emerged Monday with a series of raids in the New York borough of Queens. A law enforcement official told CNN that diagrams showing how to make bombs were found on the computer Zazi had with him when he was stopped in New York during a recent visit, but his lawyer, Arthur Folsom, dismissed that allegation.
"There's no diagram of a bomb. There's no information like that," Folsom told reporters as he walked his client to his second meeting with federal agents. If something like that had turned up on Zazi's computer, he said, "Do you really think the FBI would have allowed us to walk out of here last night?"
Zazi, an Afghan national, gave writing, fingerprint and DNA samples to FBI agents Wednesday during a "very friendly, very cordial" interview, Folsom said. He said Zazi has no ties to terrorism, and he believes his client drew investigators' attention "because he stayed at a house owned by an old friend of his who was under observation from the FBI."
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But according to law enforcement sources with knowledge of the investigation, the Colorado searches were part of a probe that began with Zazi and led to New York.
A former counterterrorism official briefed on the investigation also said bomb instructions were found, but could not say where. The former official said backpacks, computers and maps were found during the searches in New York, and field tests turned up positive for explosives. But initial tests often yield false positives, and the former official was unaware whether more definitive tests had been concluded.
The case began with a New York police informant, with authorized FBI wiretaps used to further develop the case, the former counterterrorism official said. Agents launched the raids after police stopped Zazi on the George Washington Bridge during a recent visit to New York, raising concerns that he would figure out he was under surveillance, the former official told CNN.
Wednesday, Folsom said Zazi stayed in one of the apartments that was raided after he drove to New York from Denver to sort out a business issue. Sources close to the investigation told CNN that the Queens raids were spurred by a confluence of events in the city -- including the upcoming U.N. General Assembly session and President Obama's Wall Street speech on Monday.
It's believed to be the first time Afghan nationals are suspected of possible involvement in an alleged terror plot targeting the United States. But FBI director Robert Mueller told a Senate committee Wednesday that he did not believe the investigation had revealed any "imminent danger."
"There's no diagram of a bomb. There's no information like that," Folsom told reporters as he walked his client to his second meeting with federal agents. If something like that had turned up on Zazi's computer, he said, "Do you really think the FBI would have allowed us to walk out of here last night?"
Zazi, an Afghan national, gave writing, fingerprint and DNA samples to FBI agents Wednesday during a "very friendly, very cordial" interview, Folsom said. He said Zazi has no ties to terrorism, and he believes his client drew investigators' attention "because he stayed at a house owned by an old friend of his who was under observation from the FBI."
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Agents raid New York buildings in terror inquiry
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But according to law enforcement sources with knowledge of the investigation, the Colorado searches were part of a probe that began with Zazi and led to New York.
A former counterterrorism official briefed on the investigation also said bomb instructions were found, but could not say where. The former official said backpacks, computers and maps were found during the searches in New York, and field tests turned up positive for explosives. But initial tests often yield false positives, and the former official was unaware whether more definitive tests had been concluded.
The case began with a New York police informant, with authorized FBI wiretaps used to further develop the case, the former counterterrorism official said. Agents launched the raids after police stopped Zazi on the George Washington Bridge during a recent visit to New York, raising concerns that he would figure out he was under surveillance, the former official told CNN.
Wednesday, Folsom said Zazi stayed in one of the apartments that was raided after he drove to New York from Denver to sort out a business issue. Sources close to the investigation told CNN that the Queens raids were spurred by a confluence of events in the city -- including the upcoming U.N. General Assembly session and President Obama's Wall Street speech on Monday.
It's believed to be the first time Afghan nationals are suspected of possible involvement in an alleged terror plot targeting the United States. But FBI director Robert Mueller told a Senate committee Wednesday that he did not believe the investigation had revealed any "imminent danger."
Can i have yo numba
can i have it. I am bored So my dad is supposed to come over later to grab a few things, I am not sure what to say to him. he is going to get a few of his tools, I was thinking about my old job and I am going to blog some memories about it in a minute
alright
So i just woke up about 10 minutes ago or so and already took a shower. Awesome. I am stressing because of the job thing, its driving me nuts, but i am sure I can pull through it homie haha, well aside from that i feel energetic, i need to get out of the house bla. My mom is still in the hospital and she has to go back to ICU because of her heart rate is to high.
morning time
I am like beyond bored and whats really weird, is my moms dog came into my room and is asleep on the couch and my cat is laying on my chest right now, its alot of fun oh yea. lol
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
kanye west taylor swift
FUNNY. Alright kanye your an ass haha. that was funny though. I mean alright taylor swift sings really good but she always sings about the same stuff. A boy. She should sing about the economy or something or money problems that would make her cooler. Its like alright taylor your a hot 19 year old correct but quit singing about boys all the time. I read comments on youtube from guys saying marry me to taylor swift and yet she sings like she has a heartbreak its like shut up. the day she makes a song about the world or something will probably be near the apocolaypse. Kanye its your turn. Didnt your mother die? stop acting like a fool. yo um good job but beyonce should of won. thats messed up, now the apology has been accepted by taylor swift so I guess it makes it all better. ha
ok so its the second day without a job and its like bla this sucks, there isnt anything to do around the house. eh. My girlfriend got me a battery and a phone charger for my phone and fedexed it to me and i just got it. What was weird is the fedex guy got out the truck and fed my moms dog a milkbone and I was like aww thats either really sweet or he just fed that dog rat poisen....call it fedx the poisen hahaha. I make myself laugh. um update on my cat, its a ninja so its name is ninja, he has gotten a little bigger, but hes the devil im sure. well later
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
this sucks
so today I got fired from my job and everyones like well at least your going to jacksonville (miami maybe) so it sucks alot but i am sure that some how and some way i can make it through, Food lion sucks anyway, dont ever work there ha. Of course I would say that becuase they fired me right, well idk what to say
Monday, September 14, 2009
ok
So my Mother isnt really getting anybetter in the hospital. I hope shes gonna be ok. :(
Ninja my kitten is retarded it climbs walls and always attacks me while I am sleeping
I made a youtube video about him thats it for now
Friday, September 11, 2009
clean day
Today I am going to clean and rearrange some things for ninja to be more comfy in my room, today i believe was his first day using the cat litter box, (i wonder how he climbed in). Ummmmm after I clean i will blog ha
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
someday
I make the dumbest titles anywho, i have become addicted to twitter its official, its pathetic but I only do it becuase it traffics people to this blog and you click on the crazy ads and give robbie money so its cool I appreciate you helping paying my bills, umm i notice that I spend 6 dollars almost everyday on vaults because i drink them all the time, and every payday I have bought a 5 pack of hanes white tee comfort soft, and i wont lie they are comfy i mean super comfy. I love Jesus bye bye
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
boot camp
was a movie I watched last night and I fell asleep and set my alarm clock for 630 am so I can go running because the best time to run is when the sun rises, keeps me occupied while listening to blink 182, idk what it is but when I run its like it has to be blink 182. Gay? um anyway. The movie was just weird I thought, but I slept and I had a dream my mom sent me to boot camp which she could never do that because im 22 haha. be like um negative momma lol. My dream was just weird though like kinda scary so I just woke up about ten minutes ago and its almost 430 and it would be pointless to go back to sleep so guess I will just stay up until its time to go running, which I have no idea where I want to run this morning, trails, this weird suburb off of columbia rd, I have no idea I might just run in traffic across i20 see you there business people haha, just kidding. I will probably go to the place of columbia rd, there is always this army guy running when I go there and we run and talk I think his name is rick?. well rick your a cool guy but your like 40 and your never going to see this blog but your a cool guy anyway, and chances are I will see you this morning, so lets talk about life when I get there K? Alright well bye peeps
Saturday, September 5, 2009
im weird because i hate goodbyes I got misty eyes as they said farewell
Alright so its been since tuesday since my parents split. It sucks my dad is moved out and lives in south augusta. My mom is handling it alot better than I thought she would. its just a long proccess ahead for her and my sister. A small part of me wishes I wasnt leaving but I still have to begin my own life. I have changed alot after listening to owl city so much, Idk the music just does something to me I get a thousand hugs from ten thousand lightning bugs as they teach me how to dance. insane song. I just dont like doing the whole seperate parent thing its rough. really rough
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
so today sucks ass
sorry i cussed, but......today really blows, my father is divorcing my mother. and I have been trying to help my mom but shes pissed, this is like the craziest day in a long time, not sure what to do.
mood=pissed
Monday, August 31, 2009
my birthday
kinda lame I am getting old, now 22 ha. it was ok I suppose I really only ate cake and ice cream and hung out with brandon for the rest of the day, went to the mall best buy and the kawasaki dealership, not to much of anything so I am getting off peace.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Today sucks
well I woke up to go get a tattoo from my buddy pj, turned out excellent and than I came home and got ready for work and left for work and on gordon highway a idiot swerved me off the road causing me to smack into a guard rail going 60 my car isnt to bad but its not the prettiest thing in the world I am still kinda upset but hey it happens right?
well later peace
well later peace
Saturday, August 29, 2009
weird day
So I go into work only to find out that I was actually off today, so on the way out tiffany needed a ride home but we ended up hanging out and going to the mall and what not it was a cool day, than went to pjs and well he is giving me my tattoo tomorrow so thats about all that happened today.
Friday, August 28, 2009
farewell
If I could bend down to your level I would but my knees simply would never let me go that far. Its sad how someone can just twist things around to make it seem like they are better, which I always stick to what I say I dont believe I am better than anyone else but I do believe I have a better heart than others. I see that some people will turn your friends around on you and thats fine because those people are just upset that they are wrong. What else is really really sad is when someone does something and tries so hard to make it seem like they never did, ya know cover it up. They will post things and make blogs about it to try to pull them out of reality, those people are the people who are sad. really really sad. What else is sad is when someone says something about someone in a nice way like oh they are a good person and they deserve happiness and the next day call them pathetic im not sure. oh and by the way you are not the love of my life because God simply wont let me love something so evil. I mean it would be a sin to be in love with a bad bad bad bad person, you can win everyone on your side, all of my old friends and they know who they are, you can twist things around to make yourself sleep better at night and wake up to whatever that is. hobbit. I am tired of making blogs about devilish things but Im done trying to prove my point. You are evil and always will remain that way. Btw hate to through this out there but you say while you were with me you were falling away from God? but when in fact at your old job you jacked some guy off in a bathroom??? hush your mouth and quit sending rumors about me. first off you bought my best friend in by saying me and him are gay together?? just to see if I read your blogs and yea and I do so what, your an ex its normal its the way it goes, I hate to admit something but idk what there is about you to love anymore. everything you once were faded away. I remember while we were together and we would ask eachother if a year ago we saw us together what would we think, and we were like oh wow golly that would be crazy, well if the time we were together and we saw a pic of how things are now idk if you would be shocked but I would be disgusted of how you turned out and I am disgusted, go ahead write something about me saying oh shut up your a bad person and bla and your just mad about who im with now. I am not mad anymore just im confused about how someone at one time could be a good person and turn out that way. So go ahead say something because I swear your name will never be in anything I write ever again. its done. because I have my heart back. Hope you find yours
GOODBYE
GOODBYE
Thursday, August 27, 2009
I am exhausted
So woke up like really early like 830 early, got dressed went to advance auto to get my brake pads, came home put some raggy clothes on and changed my brakes, by myself with a youtube video lol. than took a shower got dressed again and went to my brothers to meet him and go to the hospital and see Lydia his baby, SO adorable. I left and came back home and took a nap and than brandon came over while I was asleep and scared the hibbidijjibbidies out of me, we had a long talk about some issues yesterday so I feel better, its almost 11pm and I am like dead tired and ready to go to bed
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
:(
My cars brakes sound like the great depression, it is insane, so I am home all alone and probably all day tomorrow, and brandon doesnt have gas so which sucks majorly, like
i have gas but no brakes, so its just kinda gay. I went to the gas station to get my daily fix, vaults I LOVE THEM, I dont feel complete until I drink one so I end up drinking like 5 a day everyones like thats unhealthy but heyy im losing weight anyway so ha. My sister is going to Ireland for school which is interesting because I have never left the country. But I am glad she is in school and everything. which reminds me Jacskonville tech wont just like give me the fax number so I have to do all that when I get there. I will update more later
i have gas but no brakes, so its just kinda gay. I went to the gas station to get my daily fix, vaults I LOVE THEM, I dont feel complete until I drink one so I end up drinking like 5 a day everyones like thats unhealthy but heyy im losing weight anyway so ha. My sister is going to Ireland for school which is interesting because I have never left the country. But I am glad she is in school and everything. which reminds me Jacskonville tech wont just like give me the fax number so I have to do all that when I get there. I will update more later
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
When I am down
I watch jonlajoie youtube videos they are so funny, one of the lyrics out of the verses out of this song he made and no usually I do not cuss but im just copying and pasting what he says
Like Macho Man Randy Savage and Hulkamania,
Every year he travels to attend WrestleMania.
Applause for google adsense paying me on time
Like Macho Man Randy Savage and Hulkamania,
Every year he travels to attend WrestleMania.
It may come as no surprise that he’s never had sex,
but it doesn’t bother him ’cause he has the internet.
He jerks off to freaky shit like 2 Girls 1 Cup,
he’s fucked up I tried watching it I fucking threw up.
horrible language but here is the video of his everyday normal crew
Applause for google adsense paying me on time
Monday, August 24, 2009
blaa
Interesting day. My brother had his baby today yay. She is gorgeous. I dont have much just to say just yet lol I will blog more soon, brakes suck on my car so I have to get a ride to work
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Sunday, August 23, 2009
I hate being sick
Its like 3 days straight of me being sick except this time I am going to work feeling all crappy. idk I dont have much to say just yet
update
I am down to 183 when a month ago i weighed about 210 205 so im on a roll, its 7 in the morning and i just got up, i know early right but its all cool I went to sleep to early last night. Yesterday I watched two Good movies, The first one was freedom writers, that was a very good movie and than I watched the last house on the left which also was a good movie, a bit weird though but it was ok. On a personal note I feel like crap because I am sick again, I am not sure what is up with my body but I think I have like low white blood cell count or something, its like for the past month I am sick every other week when usually I never get sick, I just sneezed like five times in this whole blog already. Its crazy. Now smoking almost done 4 a day well yesterday I was off and I smoked like 5. I am really hoping I can stick with it, and like not go back to a pack a day or something. I have been trying to hang out with some old friends lately but they just dont seem interested in having anything to do with me anymore so I have givin up. I feel like florida is taking forever to get to, i have so much i have to do within a months time that its stressful but its gotta be soon, very soon. My mother and I had one of our deep talks yesterday and she finally agrees with me leaving to florida. I want her supoort before I go. I posted a blog about Jessica and she is stalking me, like a thousand texts a day, and its getting annoying. My cars brakes are shot out and they need to be replaced, I dont even like driving it, and I think what happened the other day was the main event I was going to work and some a hole peeled out in front of me and I had to like literally slam on the brakes and ever since they are like scratching, it sounds like the girl from the grudge is living in my tires. A update on my job, my store manager no longer hates me we are actually getting along. Thats a plus especially for my transfer which is gonna be really different because I am transferring to a food lion thats like located right beside the beach and yea thats cool but its gonna be nothing but tourist the whole time, with attitudes more than likely. Who knows. The main thing I am doing is keeping God right beside me at every choice I make and everything I do, sometimes it gets hard when my mind starts to wonder off but somehow God saves me when that happens, like my brakes go bad and it makes me think well crap I need new brakes instead of thinking about other things. A plus? maybe lol. Its now time to admit that I do not want to be a nurse anymore, as a matter of fact I dont wanna be in the hospital field, I have decided to go with music. Its like when I play the guitar or I start playing with fruity loops or something I always get in this world where I am happy which on the inside most of the time I am not, I fake smiles everyday just to pass by but behind closed doors you will see my frown, I need to do what makes me happy. I dont think nursing would anymore. My mom told me we all fall and we get hurt and she told me I have to pick myself up and I really feel like maybe I have just been crawling, I mean ya im doing things to make me a better person as far as trying to quit cussing and smoking and losing weight and stuff like that but those are just things on the outside, I need to learn how to make my heart beat and be ok with just me. I will succeed. I promise
Friday, August 21, 2009
Funny Day
Although nothing like crazy happened, but I had to train one of our stockers today, well because he needs some help with stocking, anywho thats not funny but on a not funny note, I have realized lately that I am much more energized probably because of running my butt off all the time and well like when I am at work I just am like super hyper all the time its insane, I constantly run like everywhere I go at work. Anyway me and fred go outside to take a smoke break. (fred is a coworker of mine who actually got me a ivory ring which is made from elephant tusk mostly because I liked the one he had and he thinks I am a cool guy). Anywho there is a girl named tiffany that I work with, Note there are two tiffany's, a african american and a caucasion, I am not fond of the caucasion because well I have my reasons. I dont even think I am spelling caucasion right annnywho, tiffany is outside picking up her friend from work jessica and not the jessica i have previously blogged about but another african american Jessica, anyway I am not racist I love black people it just seems more convenient to say african american than black, but she drives like a 98 accord or something and she is outside while me and fred are smoking our cigg (btw down to 6 a day) next week is five. Well she is blaring the song wasted by gucci man which no I dont drink anymore but its a very cool song so fred starts like dancing and everything beside her car and she is laughing and I jump on her car on the top where her sunroof is dancing (like i know what im doing lol) and customers walk outside just like eying us down like we just got down smoking crack. anyway the song ends and i end my weird dancing, so we go back in and I listen to my mp3 player while i stock and I am stocking with fred for training him and I just am dancing everywhere and singing but I dont know how to do either. Well thats about it for now peace.
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Thursday, August 20, 2009
well
those weird stupid ignorant comments can end now. mind your own business whoever you are, and I have a general pretty good idea, go play in traffic
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Sad
So like for the past 3 or 4 weeks I have been running before I go to work or like early in the morning well I usually pick this spot off of columbia rd beside firehouse to run at, its like in the suburbs area. Anyway I was off today and I am like well I am gonna go run but I didnt feel like driving out there this time, so I thought I could go to the grovetown trails. Which I havent been there in a long time and I really dont like going there or would I want to normally but I thought I could handle it afterall it was just to run. Well I get there and like I immediately start thinking about the past but I was like Im gonna be ok I can do this, so I cut on my mp3 player and started running, and I get down the trails and all and I see a puddle not a very big one like the one from a long time ago but big enough, and when I saw it like I just stopped and just sat down and started thinking about things, Still to this day I feel confused, I pray and God hasnt sent me one sign not to move to florida so I guess thats a plus, but just my life really feels just sucky. October is coming up and I really really hope I am not here on a special date off the month. I talked to an old friend yesterday, and she has had her problems in her relationship but they are getting through it, which I am proud for them. She was telling me that I will find someone for me, I told her that I am not looking. and she said well they will come to you and Immediately I thought if they did I would just run away, Like i just did 2 weeks ago. I feel like I could never trust anyone. I have so many insecurities it drives me insane. I know that I want what I cannot have and I have come to terms with that, but why do sometimes I still feel as if I need it, especially when the thing you think you want or may need doesnt even care and is already with another person. Its really hard letting go but I think its safe to say that when I do move, I know I wont be with anyone probably till after college, but hopefully the new surroundings will help me start over.
Rascal Flats-I'm movin on
Rascal Flats-I'm movin on
I havent done anything about news lately
So I am tired and I just wanted to talk about the 90% of money being traced with cocaine on it. What that means is, little pieces of cocaine are on 90% of the currency we handle today, which makes since becuase I always feel high when I get paid, and I get really excited and when the money is gone well I feel bummed so I guess that makes since
Monday, August 17, 2009
There was a girl named annie
today has been like really boring, I watched the x men last stand which is old but hey its a good movie. My title is after a song by safety suit that is like always playing on my phone by mistake, haha...I really dont have to much more to say sooo well goodnight
Sunday, August 16, 2009
today
really was probably the funniest day in a while, so I am at brandons and oscar and jason come over, well there is like the biggest frog in the pool so me and oscar are tossing it up in the air for it to land back in the water like it was hilarious. well than brandon is like OMG what are you doing and we are like well we are tossing up a frog so brandon goes to do it but he throws it a little off course and it smacks the concrete and oscars like omg we gotta put it out its missery so than brandon just chunks it at his house and hits the wall and hits the pavement again and well it was sad. I cried, not really, anyway I dont understand why someone will say there better than that but when they started the drama. weird? yes. anywho I am probably going to brandons later around midnight or so and oscar said he is coming back but we will seee
ALRIGHTYYY
*cracks knuckles*. You may or may not read this. If not I dont care, I apologize that I live in a world where I dont date my best friend. Really I am. If that lets you down than I hope you can find a way to stand back up. You did this same crap to another ex and really its immature, if your going to pose like your something religious or christian or a good person, than start acting like it, I honestly could care less anymore, but it is annoying, why are you mad seriously? seems to me like your just settling for someone because I am not stupid enough to come back to you, you treat all your bfs like crap and dude and please watch out its coming, seriously though its like I dont have anything to do with you, I dont talk to you at all and you still make statuss about me, golly whats next a teddy bear, knock it off. Since everything was a lie and did what you did was beyond wrong and what goes around comes around but I wont be the person to come around to proove that theory so maybe it will be God or someone idk yet. A helpful pointer though, "since your over me" dont make statuss about me or even attempt to care about what I do. Now my best friend Brandon. Thats what he is, and see the thing is I was so confused about what a best friend was until I met him. He is always there for me, a call away and helps with everything I need help with, but thats what he is, a best friend. What you try to do is this, you say and do things just to try to make yourself feel better (because deep down you realize your a really bad person) and heyyy thats ok that your a bad person. there are tthhouuussannds and millions of them out there. Not saying your the worst person in the world but your rankings get higher each year, i am sure in 2020 you will be a axe murder that just killed a whole entire state and wears the face around yours. Now I did read a blog of yours a while back about our relationship and how it rolled down hill and smacked into a wall of concrete. First off why dont you tell the world of why it did. so let me. You kept leading someone on (which you date now which actually makes me feel better for him Good job) but you cheated when I never did. ahh I think thats one thing that pulls me along this road of life along with my best friend is the fact that I Robbie didnt do anything wrong and honestly just makes me feel like a better person which *cough* *cough* I know I am. Now yes at one point I said man I wish I never dated you or fell for the way I did, but I am glad I did because that way when I move and the time does come for me to have a gf in jacksonville you taught me who and who not to fall for, I learned that I need to open a book before I buy it, I hope that theory makes since. You cant sit there and say in a blog OMG robbie wanted me to get rid of someone that I couldnt get rid of and biggidyblabla without saying in your cool blogs about why I wanted you to do those things now granted, the world knows yall are together and heyy all jokes and hatred aside I hope it works out. now honestly I dont think you have much of a heart, I mean thats just me and my opinion along with plenty others I am sure. Look this blog was meant to be like this. So here we go, Dont start rumors about me and my bestfriend to make you look or feel better about yourself. If you pose like the christian girl and the wonderful person than try to act like one, granted your previous actions just make you the devil but everyone can convert. Its called changing religions so say this prayer, God please help me and make me not a bad person but a good person, make me a heart to actually love with and care about people, I know I seem like a bad person to alot of pe.ople with the exception of my family and One but I want the world to know and see that deep down I can be a good person. Now convert take the time.............................................................................................................................................................
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ok feel better? I hope so I am glad you converted so perhaps now you can make statuss and put songs on your profiles like your a christian. Maybe now you can do unto others as you would have them done unto you, but we will see, Dont talk about me nor make some stupid statuss anymore and when your heart does beat maybe a total of 5 times a day I dont want to be the reason for a millisecond for the beat, Im out
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ok feel better? I hope so I am glad you converted so perhaps now you can make statuss and put songs on your profiles like your a christian. Maybe now you can do unto others as you would have them done unto you, but we will see, Dont talk about me nor make some stupid statuss anymore and when your heart does beat maybe a total of 5 times a day I dont want to be the reason for a millisecond for the beat, Im out
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Friday, August 14, 2009
strange
I hate having bad dreams, I really do, especially dreams that just make no since, its 8 in the morning and I just woke up after getting out of work at like almost five, and I dont think I can go back to bed. Its like why do I have to dream about you, its retarded come on OVER A MONTH AHH. Anyways I am listening to seal kiss from a rose and I LOVE IT. I like listening to really old stuff and like brand new stuff because if I listen to anything in the middle it will probably bring up memories I dont feel like reliving. Um what else is new? My dog is sick :( sucks because hes the only living thing that loves me (except for my family and friend?) only one friend really ha, but its alllll cool, I havent spoke to jessica lately :( i feel bad):........ Did you know that when it snows........(part of the song). Well I think I am getting off lets see if I can go back to sleep without having a retarded dream
Monday, August 10, 2009
its a new day
and i wish I didnt have to go to work, although I havent been to work since last thursday I dont even wanna go today. thats it for now nothing new
Sunday, August 9, 2009
I wish it was different
I havent blogged about this person since I have hung out with her. No one knows about this until now because eventually I will tell this person to read this blog because you have no idea how to find it, jessica you dont even have a twitter, but I wont tell you to read it until I am in Jacksonville. When we met two years ago well over two years ago in like 11th grade lol we were friends for a little bit, and well you find me on myspace and we just decide to hang out, Jessica first off I want to personally tell you that you are a grreeaatt person. I told you the first night that we hung out 2 weeks ago that we were just friends and I told you about my position and how I feel about a relationship and you agreed. Jessica I know tonight crushed you and if you read this I am actually writing it on the date when everything went down august 9 2009. I am not going to lie to you if you would of shown up a year ago i would be with you in a heartbeat. I totally would, Your in college, NICE CAR. nice parents, your personality is hilarious, your sweet, attractive, say the funniest things, your very caring, but to be honest I cant be with you, at least not now well when you finally read this I wont be here. Maybe one day there is a road but it cant be in this city. Im sorry. Yesterday at the mall you said you fell for me. I am sorry that you did I really am. I dont understand how because all we have done is just hang out watch movies take walks in your town. Yes we did some pretty funny things with the dude at the gas station and the girl that drove by us in the mustang and just yesterday when you made the joke about my cat being fat and you really had me laughing for like an hour. You say you love me and stuff and it realllly scares me because I am no way shape or form ready to love or be in a relationship. If I could forget the things that have happened to me than I would actually for once kiss you and be with you. I told you I cant kiss anyone and I gave you my reasons, and well you told me you would wait for me which in all honesty is the sweetest thing anyones said to me in a while. Jessica tonight you gave me a note and it was like 6 pages long, and it really made me cry, because of the things you said, tonight I told you that i didnt want us hanging out anymore because i didnt want you to fall any harder for me and that I wasnt falling for you, il get it clear, I like you alot, I really do, I would love to be with you, But I ask God and I am just not ready, I cant give you love if my love is towards someone that doesnt really exist anymore. I want to call it bad timing for you I really do, if maybe you met me a year ago, it would of saved me a major heartbreak and I honestly believe I could last with you. If I wasnt leaving and we just took it slow than i could definitely be with you, but I cant be here, It would be wrong for me to be with you and think of another person the whole time, Jessica when you read this i want you to understand something, You are amazing. You actually made me smile which is something I havent been able to do lately. You will find someone to give you love and be with you, Ima be honest I want it to be me but it cant be. I made this blog so long for you because you gave me a 6 page note. Im sorry tonight didnt turn out like how you wanted, take care and you will read this when i actually give you the url for it take care.
The strangest night ever
So its almost ten in the morning and I have not went to bed yet. so I am going to recap what has happened to me over night, it was 4 in the morning about to go to sleep, a friend calls me, (during this blog I will not mention his name due to I dont want anyone that knows him to question him about it because he asked me to not say anything but its a blog and no one will know anyway). I havent talked to this friend in over 2 months. I pick up and he is crying, My friend drank like a half thing of vodka and smoked alot of pot. At first I am like yea hes messing with me, weirdly he tells me he is beside our old high school in the woods half naked. noww ive seen a prank call video before where this kid tells his friends mom that he is in the woods naked. So im like yea hes messing with me and I tell him to knock it off, but he starts crying louder begging for me to come get him, so im like omg hes being for real. So i get there at 430 or so, and I see his car in the woods I see him sitting by a tree, and he has just boxers on and thats it with his keys in his hand and his phone. So I begin to freak. I get him into my car, and he tells me that his girlfriend of 6 months broke up with him, and I hate to say thats when it hit me that im actually handling everything pretty well, yea im depressed but im not going out getting high and drunk, now I care about my friend dearly, he vomits all inside my car, ( i cleaned it out before I got home), and he is so gone he doesnt remember how to get back home, and I havent been to his house, and I couldnt bring him to mine because my mother is up by than and that would look weird. So i get his phone and go through his contacts and I see a contact labeled mom, She picks up tired, and I didnt know what to say except Hey you dont know me at all but your son has drank alot of vodka and smoked pot, and he called me to help him because he was in the woods and couldnt drive and he was half naked. Now of course his mother thinks its a prank, so I get pissed, and say look mam, its not a effin prank your kid is throwing up all in my car tell me where you live, so I get to there house, which is in harlem not to far away from the school, and his mom is outside, she comes to my car and helps me put him into a shower, he gets out the shower and passes out into his room, his mother thanks me and everything and I leave, i run a stop sign and get pulled over, (no ticket) but the officer gives me a field sobriety test due to my car smelling like alcohol (great right) he lets me go, so I am driving towards home now and guess who calls my friends mother, asking if I could find his wallet, so I drive back up to the school, and Robbie sees my friends car get stolen...yes sucks but I do find his wallet where he was at originally so I call back and tell her his car is stolen and I tell her I am way to tired that she needs to call the police, guess what cop shows up at there house, ahhhh the cop that pulls me over for running a stop sign, they fill out a police report and everything and finally I am like yes I am going home so I leave my mother calls and ask if I can get her a pack of ciggarettes because I told her I was actually coming back from a friends house, so I go to the gas station out in harlem, and well I see my friends car just sitting there, so I call the cops 911 lol, and they come up there and as soon as they get there the guy walks out sees the cops and just falls on the ground ready to be arrested, most people would laugh about this night, but to be honest, its a learning experience. I guess although things right now suck for me, it could be worse. Goodbye
Saturday, August 8, 2009
I dont know
I keep thinking about someone who is gone and never coming back, but why is it just so difficult to let this person go. Been a month and I still think about her alllllllll day. I was told by loved ones it would get easier as time continues, but lately feels like its getting harder.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
I am not really sure
who I am becoming, like is it a new me, I guess im ok with it, I dont talk much, I used to have like the craziest sense of humor, but I just dont say much to many people, a year ago if I looked at the person I am now I wouldnt wanna be this way, the biggest thing on my list right now is to achieve in school. So I guess I will just have to be quiet lol, i dont like talking much anymore, most guys my age are out drinking having a good time and what not, I stay at home just watching movies from the redbox, like everynight for the past 3 or 4 weeks I rent a movie, last night I just watched the charlie bartlett movie or something like that, it was funny, My room is just to empty with boxes everywhere, I think its just a matter of time right now but its coming, people ask me all the time if I am scared to go out on my own, like leave a place where I grew up, I mean yeaaa I'll miss some of the friends and especially my family, actually my family is what I will miss the most, I have my reasons why I just have to leave augusta, someone once said everything happens for a reason. (out of everything that person ever said thats probably the only thing I will ever believe). I honestly have to say that it makes since for things to be the way they are. Sucks but we all have to admit how life can be sometimes. I have to start taking my life experiences and start using them towards the future. I think my last bad experience taught me, to take time to get to know a person very well, and see there character and how they handle things before I fall for someone. I said I dont regret things but I still regret loving and falling the way I did. but its the past and this is the future so i have to go to work soon later
another day
so yesterday around 9 I went to my friends house to help out with some furniture and some other stuff and than went home and basically slept the whole day away, well I woke up at 5 this morning and than stayed up till 7 and went back to bed and woke up a couple hours ago, I gotta work today. I hate my job only because sometimes I see people that I do not want to see, I wish that would stop but I probably need to be putting in my two weeks here soon within a couple days. So I got transferred and got a job down there, but I dont know if thats what I wanna do while I am down there but at least I already have a job lined up and everything so that is a plus. Before I go to work a friend wants me to take him to the pawnshop to sell his ex wifes ring, (should pull a robbie and throw it out the window on the highway) ahahahaha. or previously columbia rd whatever he prefers. oh well ima go start this day
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
just
got off work, at about 430 or so, and I am exhausted. I had one of my nightmares last night, UGGGHHH stupid old lady, floating and crap, anyway I watched that movie called the wash and OMG it was hilariously funny. Eminem does a fantastic job in movies
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Not really wanting too...
go to work, ugh its gonna be all night there today. I just got up like an hour ago and now im getting ready to go to work.
Robert Manwill
Apparently they found his body an autopsy is supposed to be performed next week sometime to completely identify if it is his him, now they just have to find the murderer
a movie
So just got done watching pelham 123, its really good to watch movies lately, gets my mind off of reality, see the whole time I was thinking I was in a subway being held hostage which seems pretty cool. Its almost 6 I need to be getting to bed soon, tommorow is going to be a loooooonnnnnggggggggg day and im really not ready for it lol.
Monday, August 3, 2009
happy day
So today I got up and my best friend brandon had already dissapeared sooo I got up and was out the door in under five minutes, because I had to help a friend out with things, Came back home got dressed for work, while driving to work I went to the gas station to get me a vault, and I saw the cutest couple, when I say cute I dont mean like they were good lookin or something like that, but they really seemed like they have something going for them, like the girl was in line with him and they were stomping on eachothers toes and stuff, but when the girl looked at him you could tell they were truly in love with eachother, I believe that true love last a lifetime, and it doesnt fade and you cant just fall out of it, so I got in my car and just started thinking why have I been upset, If it was true love than it would have lasted forever right? I think im right lol. So and update on jacksonville, all my stuff is packed, ( I think I did it to early but what the heck). So on a girl note, there is a girl who likes me still after basically being a retard and crying like a panzee, I told her I was moving about a week ago and she really hasnt spoken to me, which is fine. I had a convo with a dear friend of mine named P.J. He told asked me why wont I like hang out with a girl, kiss a girl or something. A couple reasons, one well I am moving (thats the main thing). I made a quote kinda, "its not falling for someone that scares me, its falling and hitting concrete at the end". I believe that really scares me now. The ex moved on and is with someone which through all the fighting and arguing if thats what she wants to do than its all gravy. My feelings were deeper and thats why its more difficult, I cant blame the breakup on one person or her or anyone or me, its just not what God wants me to do. Yea at first I was like ok we will be back together soon or something but as time goes on I see that it would never happen with the way things are going and esp with her having a bf and what not so I take it as Gods sign for me to not worry about it and just be done with it, which as of today its the past and I am looking in the future, now honestly I dont see me in a relationship for a vvvveeerrrrryyyyy long time not because im not over the ex or anything like that but just because, i feel like on my body there is a sign for woman that say break this heart. Thats what happens, and I mean i dont really wanna go through it again, but some say dude you cant just like give up on relationships and just because your tired of being hurt doesnt mean you cant be with someone, and Im like ummm yes it does because a heart can only take so much, I mean yes I could fall for someone when I move in jacksonville and the girl like hea
l my heart and make it better and all that goo goo gaa gaa stuff, but if you wreck a car so many times and it gets repaired its gonna break down eventually so BAM lol. What I am going to be doing in this year of 2010, well I will already be in florida, I already have a job thats a plus. But I am getting a kawasaki ninja 250r (by the way I was like a millimeter away for signing the contract for the tiburon until I looked at the gas mileage on it OMG horrible). (maybe one day) any way the NINJA. It is lovely. Now that is the exact one that they have in jacksonville for only 3000 brand new. So its gonna be mine, first when I get down there I have to take a motorcycle license. But that is enough for this blog ha. I am probably going to bed soon after watching a movie called the wash that fred at work told me about
l my heart and make it better and all that goo goo gaa gaa stuff, but if you wreck a car so many times and it gets repaired its gonna break down eventually so BAM lol. What I am going to be doing in this year of 2010, well I will already be in florida, I already have a job thats a plus. But I am getting a kawasaki ninja 250r (by the way I was like a millimeter away for signing the contract for the tiburon until I looked at the gas mileage on it OMG horrible). (maybe one day) any way the NINJA. It is lovely. Now that is the exact one that they have in jacksonville for only 3000 brand new. So its gonna be mine, first when I get down there I have to take a motorcycle license. But that is enough for this blog ha. I am probably going to bed soon after watching a movie called the wash that fred at work told me about
so...
I am thinking about making a new investment, A 250r ninja bike. In jacksonville they have a dealership for one that seems very interesting, I can get one for 3 grand out the door and I am seriously considering it, I think that would be pretty awesome lol.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
right now
brandon is the weirdest person ever, just kidding, so ive been doing a lot of praying here from today and yesterday after I found some news, and I have to thank God right now because well he is amazing. Its like it hurts but I feel better knowing that I am not the person in the wrong and it makes me better. anywho everything in my room is packed and ready to go. its alot of fun looking at a empty room.
my room looks empty
packing and my room is just blank. its fun kinda. I have been listening to peoples advice on things, and actually I know that I am a better person than some. Anyway this packing thing feels like it takes forever. It will be worth it though. I already got a job in jacksonville OHHH SNAP. haha. well ill blog a little later about news and worthless stuff that doesnt make since
Saturday, August 1, 2009
To that someone
You once showed me a song by Craig David, Im walking away. No I not running and yes I am walking away. You say you werent in love with me like I was in love with you. Fair? perhaps. Therefor it is easier for you to move on and well soon is a start of something new right? I already know what that is. So I am mentally prepared for it and I will be gone by the time that comes. (thank God). Correct I asked you to get rid of something. Something that was destroying our relationship over and over and over etc etc. I cared actually to much about you. I cared to much about us. I wanted us to work therefor I thought of the things that could make us work and get rid of the things that negatively affect us. As time went by of you not doing it, thats what killed the person you once loved. ALLL of your love and affection was towards something else and I could not win you over anymore. I guess I really wasnt that crazy. (Jimmy Wayne). Let me just put it this way. You seem like you found someone to be with, and me personally I cant be with anyone so why wont you let me do something that will make me happy, because I cant be here. You say face your problems. I cant because you dont love me so thats it on it. All I ask is that you let me move on since you already moved on to someone else.
Florida
I grew up there. I spend alot of my life in ocala. I am moving back but not to Ocala but to Jacksonville beach. Its going to be a experience. People ask why I am leaving, I really cant come up with a good excuse, im just heart broken and I dont wanna relive the memories here everyday, its to painful.
oh so little
I have done everything in my power to let her go. I dont speak to her. I try my best to avoid the memories, the laughter, the cries everything. I go alternate routes where ever I go to avoid seeing anywhere she might be, but still even after so long of that last kiss, I hear her name and whatever I have accomplished crumbles to nothing. Its so different because I was truly in love for once in my life. Thinking the whole time she was in love with me as well, turned out to be a joke from her end but still I cry myself to sleep. I dont regret ever being with her, ever dating her, kissing her. I am glad I did all the things I have done with her. I just wish and pray I could go back and put my hand to my heart and guard it, I wish I could go back and not fall the way I did, I wish I could go back and not close my eyes when I kissed her. Wish I could go back and just keep my distance and maybe only love her the way she loved me, which was oh so little
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Ok so a little bit more on the darlene haynes thing. So i was looking for that name on myspace, and well if your 23 you usually have a myspace. She hasnt logged in since 2008 but apparently at that time she had a bf named valentino. Im no investigator but I looked at his profile and his status just says Im good. And he logged in not even a few days ago. Im confused upon that. Maybe the police should investigate him as well
Some sick people
Ok so in Massachusetts someone killed a 23 year old named Darlene Haynes. Now apparently somone killed her and cut out her baby from her stomach. The baby was 8 months. There is no detail if the baby is still alive or not. Darlene must of been dead for a few days since the neighbors called the police saying they smelt something bad coming from her apartment. The body was found in a closet with a bed sheet wrapped around her. Thats sad, I posted earlier alot of murders and stuff comes from the economy but you have to remember there are some people that are just plain sick in this world. I mean apparently someone wanted this baby like really bad. They couldnt just wait a month for it? She had a friend that said Darlene was having a friend coming over to drink some wine coolers. In the cnn report thats all it said. I ask myself why are you drinking when your 8 months pregnant. This is one of those cases where I hope they find this weirdo and do away with him/her. SICK SICK PEOPLE
A man named Scott Roeder shot a doctor down in the church. The Victim Scott Roeder shot was a dr named George Tiller. Dr. Tiller was one of the few doctors in America that performed late abortions. Which means he did Abortions later than they usually are performed. This is one of those murders where you are confused like hm what do you think is right and what is wrong. Well I am against abortions 100 percent. Thats a clear cut decision. If you dont want a baby dont have sex. Simple, or sign the child up for adoption. but with a late abortion it just makes it sicker to me bc well there is feet, hands and a heart beat. This reminds me of wanted. Some of you may have not seen that movie but basically its about assasins who kill people. One of the quotes from the movie are from Angelina Jolie. "kill one person save a thousand". or something like that. So ok well I am against murder and I am against abortions. Scott was a anti-abortion activist so thats why he did what he did. The family decided to close down the clinic completely. So weirdly and call me sick but if the dr is dead than no more babies will be killed. (at least from him anyway) Now I am not giving Scott Roeder a thumbs up saying way to go dude. Because instead of shooting him in the head at a church, you coulda just gave him a ultimatum. Look close down the clinic or I will shoot you on a sunday at church. Sorry
New orleans and other cities
So I was interested in seeing high crime rate cities. The highest is New Orleans with a scale 1-10 they hit a 10. I also looked at other cities. For instancel, Miami Florida hits a 7, Atlanta Georgia hits a 9, Los Angeles hits a 7. Weirdly new york gets a 6. I also looked at other cities. I live currently In augusta Georgia and they make a 3. I am moving to jacksonville florida and well its a 7 there. The main question I ask is why is the crime rate just so high. So I looked at the crime rate of a large city but more wealthy people. Beverly Hills only gets a 5. Blame it on the economy baby. Confused? Im not people get stressed in these cities. Since the hurricane New Orleans has doubled their crime capacity. Stress, bills, house washed away and your dog max. I mean if I miss my power bill im not gonna stab someone. But these cities and the cost of living in them are expensive especially new orleans with the unemployment rate there. nashville is the same way. You have never seen so many homeless people. But its not the homeless people killing others. Its the people taking kids for ransome. You can blame it on the government (half the time I do). Its insane Palm Beach florida has a 3. Just a 3. Again its a wealthier city. I mean dude if you drive a mercedes and have a 3 story house whats the point in stabbing someone. there is none. I just have to say its the economy driving these people nuts. I mean look at leatherface. Did you see how crappy his house was in the movie, they lived in like the ugliest town and the only way to get a job was to kill someone who already had one and looke what happened. TISK TISK
world peace or should we focus on the streets
what is world peace exactly? Is it really just all the countries being cool with eachother, Ok that sounds nice. lets say all the countries are cool now? As a united states citizen I dont really even see peace here in our own country. I mean racism, poverty, killers, rapist, prostitutes, pedophiles (that list can go on and on). Why do I feel like our government is focusing on other countries. I am kinda confused upon this. We have soldiers out in another country, Iraq for instance. They write a whole article how one soldier got shot in the country my a Iraqi, but when a five year old that lives down the block from you was brutally raped and murdered and didnt even make it to the local paper. Its nonsense. In reality wouldnt it be smart to have soldiers patrolling our streets at night. Wouldnt you feel protected if you looked out your window and instead of seeing a crackhead break into your car you see a soldier walking down the street patrolling your neighborhood fighting off the crime that lives a block away. Instead of fighting crime thousands of miles away and the government still cant find anything as a big threat to us. I saw a movie where this cop was a patrol guard in a city walking around. Do you see that? If you do it is in a rich city, and just how many crack heads are in a rich city along with rapist and murders. My point is we have to listen to tupac from ghetto gospel.
Before we find world peace
We gotta find peace within the war in the streets
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Ciggarettes
Are ciggarettes more of a mind need, or is it actually something people really need, I am kinda confused, I have been smoking for 5 years (guilty) but why is it so hard to just let it go, I mean reality all I am doing is putting a little tube into my mouth sucking smoke in and letting it out, Is it the fact that I am used to doing something with one of my hands, I have tried the patches, They are crap I might add. Tried chewing gum but I still end up smoking even with a piece of gum in my mouth. The only thing I have next is maybe trying chantix.
so its 7 in the morning, I have to be at work at 5 today so its gonna be interesting. I am extremely tired. I currently drive an 04 hyundai and I just wanna say dude these cars are very nice, I love my hyundai. I really do. Its probably the best car ive ever drivin in and I recommend anyone who is looking to get a car to buy one. it wont let you down
I think the world is just revolving around money in general, its like nothing is free today, its more like buy one get one free, but you always pay more, its so hard to get a loan to even help out with getting anything, its ridiculous I mean, it really makes me want to just rob a bank, I mean if they arrest me I could just say heeeyyyyyy you rob me all year right. I dont understand why its as rough as it is, I am kinda jealous of homeless people, because what bills do they have at all, yea of course there credit might be in the crapper due to there life beforehand but you really have to think I am sure these people are the most less stressed people out there, they are on the road and someone is flying in there piece of crap car going to the bank to try to fight off a forclosure and well lilttle bob on the side of the road is thinking man sucks for that guy.
I havent made a post in a while, i mean dang i only have 4 followers im not even sure why I keep doing this but oh well who knows, im going through a break up, its been over 3 weeks and I guess its getting easier as the time goes by, I am moving to jacksonville florida in about a month max so I think that would be a great start for me to do
Monday, July 20, 2009
Friday, July 10, 2009
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Monday, July 6, 2009
My outlook
on animal testing. its fun you should try it. Dove on the dogs,....nahh kidding....The thing I was thinking about was the Michael Jackson thing.....like helllloooo what if he never ever did die. like he went somewhere else. to another country and had everyone pose like he did die....and ten years from now he will still be making records, just like tupac....
Sunday, July 5, 2009
A new day
So going into work not really ready to go but guess I kinda have to. The news is still filled with the michael jackson thing. Oh. and why are they selling tickets to his funeral, is he going to be doing thriller.
Today was fun. All over the tv. I see nothing accept the things about michael jackson. Wondering how he died and everything. When it first happened I heart it was because of a heart attack. But what if he didnt die. What if he was tired of all the drama and just moved again and have everyone say he died......
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Perez Hilton
The video where he says the guy from black eyed peas punched him in the face. I think he deserves it. Yes he is a famous blogger but what else is he really, if a celebrity punched me in the face. I would kind of feel honored and tell my friends all about it
4th of july
Today is the 4th. A bunch of crazy people running around blowing things up. I on the other hand will probably just throw the snap and pop things around like a lunatic. Its alot of fun seeing people get excited. In all honesty I dont really think we are celebrating independence day. I dont remember reading in history of the soldiers shooting fireworks, eating hotdogs, and drinking beer. Its all a tad bit weird
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