happy day

So today I got up and my best friend brandon had already dissapeared sooo I got up and was out the door in under five minutes, because I had to help a friend out with things, Came back home got dressed for work, while driving to work I went to the gas station to get me a vault, and I saw the cutest couple, when I say cute I dont mean like they were good lookin or something like that, but they really seemed like they have something going for them, like the girl was in line with him and they were stomping on eachothers toes and stuff, but when the girl looked at him you could tell they were truly in love with eachother, I believe that true love last a lifetime, and it doesnt fade and you cant just fall out of it, so I got in my car and just started thinking why have I been upset, If it was true love than it would have lasted forever right? I think im right lol. So and update on jacksonville, all my stuff is packed, ( I think I did it to early but what the heck). So on a girl note, there is a girl who likes me still after basically being a retard and crying like a panzee, I told her I was moving about a week ago and she really hasnt spoken to me, which is fine. I had a convo with a dear friend of mine named P.J. He told asked me why wont I like hang out with a girl, kiss a girl or something. A couple reasons, one well I am moving (thats the main thing). I made a quote kinda, "its not falling for someone that scares me, its falling and hitting concrete at the end". I believe that really scares me now. The ex moved on and is with someone which through all the fighting and arguing if thats what she wants to do than its all gravy. My feelings were deeper and thats why its more difficult, I cant blame the breakup on one person or her or anyone or me, its just not what God wants me to do. Yea at first I was like ok we will be back together soon or something but as time goes on I see that it would never happen with the way things are going and esp with her having a bf and what not so I take it as Gods sign for me to not worry about it and just be done with it, which as of today its the past and I am looking in the future, now honestly I dont see me in a relationship for a vvvveeerrrrryyyyy long time not because im not over the ex or anything like that but just because, i feel like on my body there is a sign for woman that say break this heart. Thats what happens, and I mean i dont really wanna go through it again, but some say dude you cant just like give up on relationships and just because your tired of being hurt doesnt mean you cant be with someone, and Im like ummm yes it does because a heart can only take so much, I mean yes I could fall for someone when I move in jacksonville and the girl like heal my heart and make it better and all that goo goo gaa gaa stuff, but if you wreck a car so many times and it gets repaired its gonna break down eventually so BAM lol. What I am going to be doing in this year of 2010, well I will already be in florida, I already have a job thats a plus. But I am getting a kawasaki ninja 250r (by the way I was like a millimeter away for signing the contract for the tiburon until I looked at the gas mileage on it OMG horrible). (maybe one day) any way the NINJA. It is lovely. Now that is the exact one that they have in jacksonville for only 3000 brand new. So its gonna be mine, first when I get down there I have to take a motorcycle license. But that is enough for this blog ha. I am probably going to bed soon after watching a movie called the wash that fred at work told me about